Some feelings...

It's been one mth since i have been here..
Some of the feelings are starting to set in.
Feelings of being alone, feelings of feeling tired and frustrated when i have to deal with other pple staying in the house.
Feeling of being disconnected frm watever is going on in Singapore.

Now, there is this chinese song called Huai Jia playing on YES 93.3...
This is juz great, it has boost my atmosphere to write.
This is not really a sob-filled and tear jerking entry.

I think this has arise bcos i come to the realisation that as much as i might wan to keep in touch and everything, there is a limit to as how much i can try.
For instance, i called someone last sunday afternoon, knowing that this was the time that the person who be free, cos it's the time that the person goes to church.
After calling 30 numbers, and after redialing continuously from 1pm to 130pm Singapore time, i think it is time to give up. Out of the many times that i called, only one i got thr' and it was bcos the phone was in the bag,and due to either divine intervention, i could hear the conversations going on. i put down the phone and i was and am reasonably upset.
I tried again on Singapore time Sunday night.
No reply. No pick up.
I tried last night, which is Sat morning. No reply, no answer.
Tried this morning at 11 am ( which is 11pm Sat) no reply, no answer.
After trying so many time for juz one person, it is hard to say that i am not disheartened.
Am i being unreasonable?
I dun think so... Bcos i have alr tried to call at the most humane hours...haiz..
wat can i say?
I am worried that something happened to the person.
but then frm the conversations that i heard, i think the person is well.
I guess when u are so far away home, one wld certainly wish that the pple ard him/her wld nt forget him/her.Maybe bcos i m so far away frm home, and there are somethings that are not going well here, the feeling of neglect gets to me. The innate fear that pple move on in their lives without me... I can't tell my housemates the tots on my mind, i can't tell them how much i miss someone, i can't tell them my concerns..i can't tell them how concerned i am with regards to the happening in my frens' lives...,

I called someone else next, the person din pick up as well.
It makes me feel as if i am on the wrong frequency, and that no one in the sane mind would pick up. It is indeed a lonely feeling.
But this person, i can understand..
I read her blog.. How i wish that i am in Singapore now.
At least, she wld have comfront, at least i noe wat is going on.

Today it rained the whole day.
And I, stayed at home for the whole day.
Yes, i am a boring person.
I juz feel like staying at home juz to get some tots sorted out.
Read a bk that i bought by C. S Lewis called "till we have faces"..
I wanted some privacy.then one of my housemates who was bored came into my room, sat in my bed.. and there went my afternoon of SO-litude.
Out of the , 2 went to the Halloween party at the pub..
I'm nt into pubs and as a Christian i dun think i wan to be at a Halloween party.
The man went out drinking.
The other woman is on webcam with her husband.

I am living by the phase-" Make every effort to live in peace with all men and to be holy."- Hebrews12:14.

DISC- we have all sort of combination here.
One is DC- singapore style
One is CS- same as me
One / two is IC/ID....
haha.......It is a challenging time.