thoughts on r/s and men

day 2 of the foolish act...
the guy is very persistent..
he keeps calling and smses and left me a voice mail which indicated he wanted to have coffee session with me..
Freaked out... with change phone with uncle when he leaves..

while we were on this topic, Yl was teasing me abt this black guy.. and that i have a date on V day...we started to tok about the past... and how we dun get dates on that very depressing day...

and we started to talk abt our past crushes/ relationships/ the type of guys we met... and the kind of crazy things we did in the past...
it's one of the more enriching conversations that we had..
i told her abt my "first" bf, and like hw we broke up...
abt the internet guy that i got to noe thr' my fren, and wld send me cards and his pics.. but that guy was really sweet.... if i din tok abt my "first" bf, i wond;t have tot of him again.
Suddenly i wonder if he still lives in the same place.
abt hte guy who sat beside me when i was in sec 2, whom my close fren was in love with, and told him abt her feelings...but...he liked someone else instead...

and even frm the guys that i had a crush in recent times, i came to realise that of all, only one crush remains deeply etched in my heart. To say that i truly loved him,might even be possible... but "wat is done is done". Time is the best medicine for myheart.

YL told me her story... and it's really sad...
a lot of regret, and pain and sadness..
i dun think that i wld have done so...?
she showed me an email that he wrote to her saying that he was sorry for making her wait, and that his answer/choice wld be his gf. The guy approached her to be his gf... but she told him to go back to his gf, though she was deeply in love with him.
when i read that email... i really felt sad for her..that like tears were swelling up in my eyes

i can not understand hw guys can juz be so rational abt everyhing.
and i came to really SEE, open eyes big big, to be totally rational abt it that juz because a guy treats u well, dun mean that he likes u..
juz becos he likes u dun mean u need to like him.

JUZ becos a guy treats u well, dun mean that he likes u..

this i need to remember..
and as i prone upon it, i realise that mayb i was being too oversenstive abt uncle, and that we are juz companions on the route.
sometimes it's funny like how one day u are totally sure that he is juz treating u as a fren, and another day u saw something "more" ..
hw can our emotions ever be stable!!!
haiz... anyway, need bed... nites to the world.