Tuesday, October 30, 2007

I need an outlet.

I seriously need an outlet abt what is going on.
mayb i am too sensitive... and if i tell other pple abt my suspicions, it wld be a "big" allegation to make.

Frm the other time that i blog abt the person, i came to established that he only tells me that he is going home. or he will "report" to me when he will be going home.

And that, i only know yesterday.. and i m feeling uneasy abt it.
apparently, he came to look for me and asked if i was ready to go.
I told him i needed another 5 -10 mins, and he told me he'll wait for me downstairs-at his desk.
So i went and looked for YL, and asked her if he asked/ told her that he's going home.
apparently he didn't do that.
and YL seemed to be oblivious of the fact that he was gone, though their lab hoods are nearer.

Later when we got home, i asked R whether he asked/ told her that he was going home..
apparently that was not the case.

And FYI, i sit at the other end of the lab.
pple ask me whether i like him.
I dunno ..
I really dunno... mayb it's juz nice to tok to him.
but one shld nt mistake that for love.
and, i dun see a future with him.

what then shld i do?
steer clear of him..?
God, pls guide me thr' this dark road, and draw me closer to u.